Met this girl, a perfect mirror of me, a girl that I would spend my life with. We are literally mirror souls. The problem is, she has a bf before I met her. And she lives on the other side of the Earth.
Ironic isn’t it. People spend their whole life searching for their other half. Not many of them can find one. Me? However, found one yet we can’t be together. I would do anything just to see her. And I am working on it.
But, does she even want to be with me anymore… That is the question.. It’s immoral to steal someone’s gf from another guy. I am not that kind of person.. But… at the same time, I think I should.. Soulmates only come once in a life time. The rest are just playmates. I found my mirror souls. No matter who she’s with. I should do my best to get her. And I will die trying…
The point is.. it hurts… so much… that I literally cry every night thinking of her with another person. I’ve already felt numb.. I already lost my ability to love anymore.. She is my last person that I will ever love. Move on? Find another person? What’s the point of finding or even marrying another person that I know deeply in my heart that person is not my soulmate. No, I can’t do that.. Besides, I’m kinda tired. Tired of disappointment. Tired of getting hurt again. I’m so done with love. I’m putting my last effort to love my last and only mirror soul.
I am a person who keep my promises. And so I made a promise that I need to see her and at least try to get her. I’ve never failed my promises. That’s my only motivation for not collapsing.
Why is it so painful to love a person….
I just want to shout, cry and hug someone, someone who understands me and love me the way I am. And the irony is that, the only person who can comfort me, is the one that make me feel painful and hurtful.
I’m starting to understand maybe I will always be the person they need but not who they want.
Yet, it hurts..