Tired

Been really tired lately… Tired of studying, tired of assignments, tired of projects… tired of sleeping… But funny thing is, I never get tired of missing Judit. Still have insomnia, been having insomnia foe weeks now. Average 3-4 hours sleep a day, this is killing me… I just can’t keep my mind off, not even once..

A friend told me that I should just move on, but all I know is that… I can’t, not this time. Speaking of my friend, remember the friend I was talking about who just broke up with her boyfriend. I think she’s fine for the time being, I talked to her a bit, she seems decided to move on as well, they are having a “break” on the relationship, but she told me she’d rather meeting new people. Long distance sucks.. And indeed, long distance really sucks, not many people can work it out. Only chosen couples can make it. If a couple can go through long distance, they are really meant to be together. Apparently not this time on my friend’s case. I feel sorry for her, but I’m glad she is strong enough to move on.

For me, I’ve already found “The One”, no point for me to keep searching… I will be sad being alone, but if she’s happy, I am happy… I’ll be a guardian beside her, be there when she needs me. I might need to stay away from her, but I’ll always be there for her. That’s all…

All I want is to move to the Netherlands, so I can be at least closer to her. Maybe this is true love I suppose, it is supposed to hurt, it is not love if you can’t feel the pain. You feel pain because it is true.. Should I be glad? or Should I be sad? That is the question…

Why not both?…

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About Royce

A person who likes to think and think a lot... I like hanging out at places that is peaceful and quiet(which helps thinking). I draw and I write blogs occasionally. Feel free to look around in my little world. You might find something you like!
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