“You either die a hero or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain”
I can tell you I have experienced this more than anyone else as a gamer(or former gamer.. whatever, who am I kidding, once a gamer, forever a gamer right). I had been trying my very best to have fun in games, trying to be the “good guys”, trying to bring out how friendly the community can be. But it turns out, being the “bad” guys or toxic/cancerous is the most convenience and effective way to climb the rankings, and beating people with ease.
Pretty much same thing in real life, no one wants the good guys, we deserve them but we don’t need them. Being bad, sadly is what makes people success nowadays. Because being good is boring.
I am slowly seeing myself becoming the villain. I feel bad for beating those who are trying to have fun in a game. Using cheap and low tactics but legit ways to make people losing interest and becoming frustrated. I regret doing it. I was doing for a good intention. I wanted to punish those bad guys. So I decided to become one. But fighting fire with fire, actually backfired. Now I realised how easy and how rewarding it can be being bad. I’m afraid I might be turning into one, in games and real life as well.
It’s a temptation that no one can repel. Not even me can hold it for long. I will fall one day, for I am alone facing it. Just hope when that day comes, I will still have some compassion in my heart, that can remind me of who I was…
Anyway, hope you are all doing fine so far. I’m tired.. So, until next time, Stay Healthy Stay Safe.